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Talking about COCKTAIL TALK / MY BARTENDING SPACE WHEN I HAD DREAMS OF LIQUID ALCHEMY . IT IS THE CLOSEST THING TO CHEMISTRY ILL EVER GET . AND FUN TO WEAR BLACK AND WHITE.

 

Quote     I WANTED A BLACK SKIRT AND WHITE TUXEDO SHIRT AND BOW TIE AND BLACK HIGH HEELS

 

FOR ONE OF MY UNIFORMS BUT I NEVER GOT IT.  BUT THAT IS MY IDEA.  I HAD FUN TILL JOHN HUFFMAN CAME

ALONG AND HIM AND   THAT LAWYER FROM COLUMBIA  SCREWED ME OUT OF ALL MY PAY.  NOW WHERE

 

WILL I EVER GET THE CHANCE TO BE A BARTENDER IN A PRETTY BAR EVER AGAIN ? I HATE HIM.

 

COCKTAIL TALK

 

 

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IM AWAKE. I SLEPT LATE CAUSE MY HEAD HURT.

 
 
     LET ME SEE WHAT YALL GOT TO SAY.  THAT IS A GOOD SONG
 
TO START OFF WITH. 
 
 TALK . IM LISTENING.
 
 
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IM GOING TO BED I GOT TO WORK . PLEASE MAKE SURE I MAKE IT HOME SAFE. YOU KNOW THE ROUTINE. BE SURE I BLOG TOMORROW NIGHT FROM HERE

 
 
  OH ABBEVILLE    SHERIFF WOULD LOVE
 
 
TO GET THIER  SHARP EVIL CLAWS IN ME
 
 
AND PUT ME IN THIER JAIL AND PUT ME IN LOCKDOWN
 
AND NOT GIVE ME TOILET PAPER OR WOMENS THINGS
 
THAT TIME OF MONTH OR  EVEN ANYTHING FOR MY
 
HEADACHE OR LET ME SEE A DOCTOR AND FAKE
 
 
A BLOOD PRESSURE CHECK WHEN IM  BROKE OUT
 
ALL OVER RED SPLOTCHES FROM HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE
 
AND A MIGRAINE.  AND RIDICULE ME AND NOT
 
LET ME USE THE PHONE AND SHAME ME AS USUAL
 
FOR  NOTHING. NOT A DAM THING.
 
 
     TRISH SHOULD HAVE BEEN FIRED YEARS AGO.
 
 
WONDER WHY GOODWIN KEEPS HER ON.
 
AND WHY THEY COULD NOT FIND MY CAR KEYS
 
WHEN I GOT OUT AND THEY HAD BEEN GONE FOR DAYS
 
WHEN MY CAR WAS UNLOCKED AND THEY WOULDNT
 
LET ME HAVE IT AND MADE THE WRECKER TAKE IT BACK
 
AND WOULDNT LET ME GET MY MONEY TO GET OUT
 
BUT WHEN I DID MY MONEY WAS STOLEN . BUT HE HAD
 
MY KEYS AND NO ONE KNEW HE HAD THEM IN THE JAIL
 
THEY SAID HE HAD THEM  AND I WANT
 
TO KNOW WHAT HE WAS DOING WITH THEM.
 
 
 
  SEE THEY WOULD LOVE TO ABUSE ME AGAIN.
 
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2007/3/29

MY ENEMIES NOW HAVE RSS FEEDS SO I TAKE A BIG CHANCE TALKING TO YOU NOW. BUT I REALLY DONT CARE MUCH. IVE SUFFERED WORST AND LIVED.

 
 
        I WILL SAY WHAT EVER I WANT TO TILL THE DAY I DIE.
 
 
   BUT  YOU DONT TELL YOUR ENEMIES YOUR SECRETS.
 
THAT IS  CRAZY.  THAT IS SUICIDE. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN
 
 
LIFE IS A WAR .  
 
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IM STILL WITH YOU. I KEEP THE RADIO AND TV ON 24 SEVEN. IF YOU WANT TO TELL ME ANYTHING AT ALL JUST GO AHEAD I DONT MISS MUCH IF IT HAPPENS ON "THE DANCEHALL FLOOR"

 
 
  IF YOU WANT ME TO CHANGE CHANNELS JUST GIVE ME A CLUE, I KNOW WHAT TO DO.
 
    IM JUST BEING COVERT AT LEAST UNTIL I MOVE AND I AM FREE.
 
  I GOT TO GET OUT OF ABBEVILLE FOR SURE AND OUT OF THIS BASEMENT.
 
  THEN ILL BE BACK TO TALK MORE WHEN I MOVE.  WHAT IF I GET
 
THROWN OUT IN THE STREET ? OR GET MY INTERNET CUT OFF ?
 
  SEE I GOT TO BE CAREFUL AND LAY LOW. I AM A GOOD SOLDIER.
 
 I WILL FIGHT LIKE HELL BUT DAM IF I WILL STAND OUT IN THE LINE
OF FIRE   WITH MACHINE GUNS ALL AROUND ME,
 
 IM NOT AN IDIOT.  THAT IS SUICIDE.   IF YOU KNOW THE ENEMY
IS WATCHING  YOU   THEN YOU GO COVERT.
 
  BUT I GOT TONS TO CATCH UP ON.  
 
 
         YALL JUST KEEP TALKING TO ME SO I WONT LOSE MY LIFE LINE.
 
 
 IM NOT GIVING UP MY   WINDTALKER MEISTER  GAMES.
 
 
 
                   BUILD IT ANYWAY  / MARTINA MCBRIDE
 
 
   IM JUST BEING A SMART SOLDEIR.  IM IN A WAR STILL YOU KNOW.
 
 
 
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2007/3/25

I MUST HAVE SPRING FEVER OR SOMETHING. I FEEL LIKE IM WALKING OUTSIDE OF MYSELF AND LOOKING BACK

 
 
      all of my spaces are still a part of me but they are just not the way i
feel exactly anymore.  oh i still hate abbeville that will never change. but
 
  i just got spring fever i feel more alive than i have in years and i just
 
dont like these spaces anymore. i feel the need to   find a new personality or something.
 
like everyone does when they   emerge. metamorphasize .
 
     come out of a cocoon .  that is how i feel.  i just have the need to change.
 
           im just tired of  these same old spaces and conversations.
 
   I want to go talk somewhere else.  and  grow into a butterfly.  butterflys are free.
 
 these spaces are my memories but when i go back and read them
 
they really are not worth reading ,           they were only good for the moment.
 
 
so im creating another  place and im keeping these spaces closed to the public. im
saving them  though  only for    a  few blogs of information i wrote as my diary and
 
 i may need them  for something.  i wont delete my spaces but im moving on.
 
 
 
     im not sure yet what ill name my  new  website so i cant tell you .
 
    i just know I feel like im taking off  my coat  , like im walking outside
of my self. it is hard to explain so i wont.
 
   i might come back here im not sure .  but if i dont then
 
goodbye it was nice meeting everyone.  have a good summer.
 
 
 
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2007/3/23

ABOUT THE NEWS STORIES. WHY DID THE BLACK MAN THAT HIT THE WOMAN AT THE LIQUOR STORE IN WACO TEXAS GET A LIFE SENTENCE WHEN

 

 

  HE HIT THE WOMAN WITH THE LIQUOR BOTTLE OVER HER HEAD BUT

 THE POLICE OFFICER THAT BEAT THE HELL OUT OF A BARTENDER

 

IN CHICAGO , WHOS DADDY IS A RETIRED COP IN CHICAGO ONLY

 FACE  2 - 5 YEARS IN PRISON AND HE ISNT EVEN CONVICTED YET ?

 

  HE IS A TRAINED LAW OFFICER THAT HAS BEEN IN TROUBLE BEFORE

AND BEAT THAT LITTLE GIRL HALF TO DEATH ON CAMERA AND THAT IS

ALL HE IS FACING WHEN  A BLACK MAN GETS  A LIFE SENTENCE

WHEN HE IS ADDICTED  TO CRACK COCAINE AND ATTACKS THE

LIQUOR STORE WOMAN TO GET MONEY .

 

  WHERE IS THE JUSTICE IN THAT ?

 

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2007/3/21

IM AWAKE EVERYONE. IS ANYONE OUT THERE YET ? I STILL HAD MY HEADACHE WHEN I FIRST WOKE UP

 

  BUT IT IS EASING UP.  I GOT TO CATCH UP ON THE NEWS.  AND TRY TO

GET BACK IN A GOOD MOOD SINCE I HAD A HEADACHE FOR THREE DAYS.

 

  I CANT WAIT FOR MY SON TO GET BACK TODAY . HE WAS  CAMPING ON

THE ROUGHEST RIVER I KNOW OF . HE RIDES THE MOST DANGEROUS RAPIDS AT NIGHT

WHEN YOU CANT EVEN SEE. HE SLEEPS IN THE TREES. HE PUTS A HAMMOCK

UP 30 FEET OFF THE GROUND. HE HAS A GLOCK GUN THAT CAN EVEN SHOOT UNDER

WATER . HE HAS EVERYTHING IN HIS BACK PACK . WATER PURIFIERS EVERYTHING.

MILITARY MEALS. HE HAS LOVED TO PLAY THIS SINCE HE WAS A KID AND HE

LOVES TO WATCH SURVIVOR MAN. 

   I SAID YOU BETTER BE CAREFUL  ANYWAY CAUSE  I SAW ON THE NEWS

AND COURT TV   CRAZY EVIL PEOPLE WILL SNEAK UP ON YOU IN YOUR SLEEP

AND KILL YOU . WHAT WILL YOU DO ABOUT PREDITORS ?

   HE SAID FIRST OF ALL I SLEEP 30 FOOT UP IN A TREE WITH ONE EYE OPEN

AND SECOND OF ALL         "I" AM THE PREDITOR WHAT WILL THEY DO ABOUT ME ?

 

 .HE IS FUNNY.   IM PROUD. HE WAS THE LITTLE ONE THAT DIDNT TALK FOR

A YEAR  WHEN HE SAW TIM TRY TO KILL ME AND BEAT THE BLOOD OUT OF ME

WHEN ALL FOUR OF THEM SAW IT OUT THE BACK DOOR WHEN TIM BROKE MY

NOSE IN 88 . HE WAS DOWN IN THE FLOOR BOARD WHEN I WAS RUSHED TO

THE HOSPITAL SOAKED IN BLOOD.  HE WAS THE  KOALA BEAR THAT STUCK ON

ME LIKE GLUE BUT THE OTHER ONE WAS ON THE OTHER HIP AND THE OTHER TWO

WAS ON MY LEGS.      BUT GROWING UP HE LOVED TO PLAY MILITARY

AND I READ THEM ALL BOOKS ON SURVIVAL.  I WISH I STILL HAD MY MILITARY

SURVIVAL BOOKS IT MAKES ME CRY CAUSE I LOST THEM IN A STORAGE BUILDING

BUT THEY SHOULD HAVE GIVEN ME ALL MY PERSONAL STUFF AND MY 200 YEAR OLD

BIBLES DADDY GAVE ME.

BUT AT LEAST I STILL HAVE US AND    IF I CAN MAKE IT A FEW MORE

YEARS   I WILL SEE THEM GROW ON UP AND

THEY WORK HARD.  THEY DONT HAVE NO MONEY BUT   THEY WILL BE SOMEBODY

SOMEDAY.

 

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2007/3/20

IM BACK EVERYONE. IVE HAD A MIGRAINE ALL DAY LONG. I THINK IT STARTED AS


 

JUST A SINUS OR TENSION HEADACHE BUT IT KEPT STRESSING ME OUT

UNTIL IT JUST BECAME A SICK HEADACHE.  I THINK I WAS WORRIED

 

TOO MUCH ABOUT THAT LITTLE BOY AND TRYING TO FIND HIM . MY

LAST WORDS LAST NIGHT  WAS  THE ROCKING HORSE, RIDGE MOUNT

AND I WANTED TO TRY TO DREAM BUT ANDY KEPT THE TV ON ALL NIGHT

LONG AND I WOKE UP WITH A HEADACHE . IT WAS SO LOUD AND NO TELLING

WHAT ALL WAS ON WHILE I WAS SLEEPING. I JUST WISH THIS HEADACHE

WOULD GO AWAY.

 

          I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW IF THAT BOY WAS NEAR A CABIN

WHEN HE WAS ON THAT RIDGE. I WONDER WHERE THAT ROCKING HORSE

CAME IN ? SEE ILL NEVER KNOW. IT IS FRUSTRATING CAUSE I NEED TO BE

WHERE EVER IM WORKING ON SO I CAN LOOK FOR THE CLUES MYSELF.

THERE COULD HAVE BEEN ONE IN A CABIN YARD OR IT COULD BE AN OLD

INDIAN TRAIL OR ROAD BUT ILL NEVER KNOW CAUSE I CANT EVEN GET A GOOD MAP

OF THE AREA.  I LIKE TO KNOW WHAT MY WORDS WERE. I KNOW

COMPLACENT WAS HIS ATTITUDE THAT MUST BEEN CAUSE HE HAD THE ADHD.

AND HE WAS REALLY IN A HOLLAR OR LOW LAND LOOKING UP AT THE HILL

OR MOUNTAIN AND WANTING TO CLIMB IT AND HE DID SO HE COULD SEE OR

GET TO A SAFE PLACE AND NOT BE DOWN IN THE LOW PART.  BUT

 

 I JUST COULDNT FIND HIM  THAT IS FRUSTRATING. IT WORKS YOUR BRAIN

SOMETIMES.  BUT I AM ALSO TRAINING MYSELF AND TEACHING OTHERS TO

DO THIS AND I NEED TO KNOW WHEN IM RIGHT AND I WANT TO KNOW WHY

I SAW A ROCKING HORSE . I MAY HAVE JUST VISUALIZED ONE CAUSE I GOT

THAT NAME OR WORD I DONT KNOW. BUT I WISH I COULD BE INVOLVED IN

MY NEXT CASE. 

 

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THEY SAID THEY FOUND HIS MESS KIT TO THE WEST OF THE CAMP BUT HE WANDERED OFF NORTH EAST BUT

 
 HE STILL ENDED UP  WITHIN A HALF MILE.
 
   THIS COULD BE A GREAT LESSON FOR KIDS ALL OVER THE WORLD
 
IM SO GLAD THE NEWS COVERED IT AND NOW BOY SCOUTS CAN ALSO
 
LEARN   , DO NOT HUG A TREE. YOU SHOW YOUR FACE CAUSE THOSE
 
HEAT SENSORS ON THE HELICOPTERS  CAN FIND YOU IF YOU ARE
 
OUT IN THE OPEN.
 
 AND YOU DONT HIDE  BUT SOON AS YOU FIND OUT YOU ARE LOST YOU STAY IN
 
THE AREA  . YOU    S T O P    -STOP  THINK   OBSERVE AND  PLAN
 
THAT IS WHAT THEY SAID AND THEY SAY YOU DO NOT   HUG A TREE
ANYMORE  LIKE THAT  SCOUT MAN SAID , THE NATIONAL SEARCH AND
 
RESCUE SAID    GET OUT IN THE OPEN SO THE HEAT SENSORS CAN SPOT YOU.
 
STAY IN THE AREA   SO  THEY CAN COME AND FIND YOU.
 
    .I CANT WAIT TO HEAR  WHAT THE KID SAYS.
 
 IT PAYS TO HAVE YOUR KIDS IN GOOD SHAPE.
 
I KNOW I USED TO COULD  GO WITH OUT FOOD FOR DAYS AND  EVEN
HAVE ENERGY  AND ENDORPHANS AND THAT RUNNERS HIGH.
 
 BUT AT 7 DAYS   BY THEN  I AM GETTING WEAK BUT NOW
 
   I CANT  FAST ONE DAY  CAUSE  IM NOT AS HEALTHY AND HAPPY AS
I USED TO BE  BEFORE ALABAMA.  THEY DRAINED ALL OF MY ENERGY
 
 
IN MY HEART MIND AND SOUL AND BROKE MY SPIRIT.      BUT
 
I NEED TO BUILD MYSELF BACK UP AND GET STRONG AGAIN.
 
 
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WELL I JUST BE DERN. I IGNORED MY FIRST GUT FEELING TO TRY TO GET SOMETHING MORE COMPLICATED ABOUT THAT BOY. AND MY CRIMINAL JUSTICE TEACHER TOLD ME ALWAYS TRUST YOUR FIRST GUT FEELING

 
 
AND I DIDNT DO IT CAUSE THEY SAID THEY HAVE SEARCHED AND SEARCHED
THAT AREA AND THAT THEY  FOUND HIS MESS KIT  A HALF MILE FROM
 
THE CAMP AND HE WAS NOT THERE AND ALL THOSE HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE
 
SAID THEY COVERED THOSE AREA.
 
.....WELL WHEN I FIRST TRIED   I SAID , I GOT A WORD COMPLACENT,
 
SO I CAN SEE NOW IF HE HAD ADHD  THAT HE WAS  HAPPY GO LUCKY
AND UNCONCERNED.  BUT THEN I TRIED TO VISUALIZE WHERE HE WAS
 
BY WHAT CLOTHES THEY SAID HE HAD ON AND I TRIED TO IMAGINE
HIM,  ALTHOUGH I DIDNT   HAVE ANY IDEA OF HIS LOCATION  IN MILES
 
I DID ,  NOT ONLY VISUALIZE  HIM  BEING IN THAT HOLLAR  AND LOOKING UP
 
AT A HILL OR MOUNTAIN OR WHAT EVER AND I SAID ALL THAT PART BUT
 
I IGNORED MY HUNCH
 
I KEPT THINKING TO MY SELF OVER AND OVER, KIDS LOVE TO CLIMB
THE LOVE TO LOOK UP AND HE WILL BE GETTING UP OUT OF THAT FLAT
 
PLACE SO HE CAN SEE.  I SAID HE WILL GO UP TO THE TOP OF THE HILL
TO THE RIDGE SO HE CAN LOOK.
 
  AND  IF I HAD JUST LET IT BE  INSTEAD OF
 
THINKING IT WAS SO COMPLICATED.
 
THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN EXACTLY  RIGHT.
 
SO LET THAT BE A LESSON. TRUST AND KEEP GOING BACK TO YOUR FIRST
HUNCH OR GUT FEELING ABOUT SOMETHING.
 
OF COURSE IT IS A LOT EASIER IF YOU ARE THERE IN THE PRESENSE
 
AND ENERGY OF A SITUATION BUT  THINKING LIKE KIDS THINK
 
THAT IS WHAT I THOUGHT BUT I LISTENED TO THEM SAYING HE WAS NOT
THERE THEY LOOKED THEY FOUND HIS MESS KIT A HALF MILE 
 
SO I KEPT THINKING HARDER AND TOO HARD AND SO HARD I GOT NOTHING.
 ...........THE BEST TIMES IS WHEN SOMETHING JUST COMES TO YOU OR
YOU JUST GET AN IDEA OR WORD OR DREAM  . IT IS HARDER
 
THE HARDER YOU TRY TO FORCE IT. ESP WHEN YOU ARE NOT RESTED OR
CONCENTRATING.
 
..I WONDER THOUGH  DID THE BOY   WANDER OFF FARTHER AND
 
COME BACK  .  YOU KNOW HE DIDNT STAND STILL HAVING  ADHD .
 
 
  BUT THE PARENTS SAID HE ONLY NEEDS IT FOR SCHOOL
 
AND  THAT IS A   BAD BAD PROBLEM WITH DOCTORS ALL OVER THIS
 
WORLD  ARE GIVING  KIDS  IN EVERY TOWN STATE  RITLAN OR
ADDERAL   TO CONCENTRATE.
 
 YOU ASK COLLEGE KIDS THEY WILL TELL YOU THAT IF YOU ARE A
STUDENT   YOU CAN RITLAN OR ADDERAL.  YOU JUST TELL THE DOCTOR
 
YOU WANT IT FOR  CONCENTRATION AND  ENERGY TO STAY AWAKE AND
 
TO STUDY AND THEY GIVE IT TO YOU.   I DONT THINK KIDS NEED IT
 
THAT MUCH AND RITLAN IS POWERFUL
 
IT IS A METHAMPHETAMINE.
 
   DOCTORS    NEED TO BE   INVESTIGATED FOR GIVING THAT.
 
  IVE HAD IT.  BUT IT DONT REALLY PHASE ME.  IT MIGHT MAKE ME
 
CONCENTRATE  BUT I DONT FEEL IT AT ALL. REALLY.
 
I THINK I HAVE AN  ELEMENT OF  ADD  BUT NOT  ADHD.
 
IM NOT EVEN SURE OF THAT.  MY MIND DOES WANDER AND MY MIND
 
DOES   HAVE ABSTRACT THINKING AND  I THINK OF A LOT OF THINGS
AT ONCE AND  IN MANY DIRECTIONS.  BUT I DAM SURE AM NOT
 
HYPERACTIVE.  JUST THE OPPOSITE  . I HAVE NO MOTIVATION.
 
 I NEED ENERGY . BUT RITLAN DONT PHASE ME .  SOME PEOPLE TAKE IT
 
FOR SPEED AND I DONT FEEL A THING IF I TAKE IT.  THAT WAS YEARS AGO
 
I HAD SOME BUT IT DONT GIVE YOU ENERGY IF YOUR BRAIN IS WIRED LIKE MINE.
 
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PERFECT TIMING. I WOKE UP JUST IN TIME TO SE THEY FOUND THE MISSING BOY SCOUT. YEEAAA YIPPIE.

 
 
  AND HE IS WALKING OUT ON HIS OWN WHERE EVER THEY FOUND HIM.
HE RAN TRACK THEY SAID SO THAT IS WHY HE WAS IN GOOD SHAPE.
I GUESS HE WAS JUST A HAPPY GO LUCKY LITTLE BOY
 
WITH A VERY CREATIVE IMAGINATION AND HE WENT TO PLAY .
 
HE JUST GOT LOST.  I BET HE LEARNED HIS LESSON.
 
IM GLAD HE WAS FOUND TODAY IVE BEEN RACKING MY BRAIN AND
MY HEAD HURTS. WHEN I WOKE UP THEY HAD THE TV WIDE OPEN
ON COURT TV.
 
WELLL IM GOING TO GET ME SOMETHING TO DRINK AND GET WOKE UP.
ILL BE BACK TO SEE HOW THE BOY IS DOING. I BET HE
 
 
IS STARVING HUNGRY TOO.
 
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I GUESS ILL HAVE A CUP OF COFFEE AND READ THE CLASSIFIEDS BUT I DONT KNOW WHY

 
 I DONT WHY I BOTHER. I AM QUITE SURE ILL NEVER SEE ANY LAND
 
IN THERE THAT I CAN AFFORD OR ANY HOUSE I CAN RENT. YOU DONT SEE MANY
5 BEDROOM OLD TWO STORY HOUSES FOR 200 DOLLARS A MONTH ANYMORE
 
 
BUT I HAD ONE IN ALABAMA FOR 100  DOLLARS A MONTH.  AND IT WAS ON
 
100 ACRES AT THE FOOT OF A MOUNTAIN ON NUNNALLY ROAD.  IT WASNT A TWO
STORY BUT IT WAS AN OLD INTERESTING HOUSE LIKE I LOVE.   BIG YARD.
 
 
IT WAS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED.  THINGS ARE CHEAP IN OHATCHEE ALABAMA
 
THAT TOWN WAS NAMED AFTER AN INDIAN CHIEF.   MY CAR IS STILL
 
IN THAT   YARD TOO I GUESS.    AFTER ALL THESE YEARS. RIGHT WHERE I LEFT IT
 
IN ALABAMA.
 
 
 
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WELL I SLEPT TERRIBLE. CAUSE THEY LEFT THE TV WIDE OPEN ALL NIGHT

 
 
 THAT INTERFERES WITH MY DREAMS. 
 
 ITS A LITTLE TOO EARLY FOR COFFEE IM NOT SURE IF I WANT TO STAY AWAKE
OR GO BACK TO SLEEP. 
 
 
2007/3/19

IM BACK. I WENT TO TOWN INSTEAD OF TAKE A BATH. IT IS BEAUTIFUL OUTSIDE TOO .

 
 BUT I WENT TO THE GROCERY STORE AND IT ALMOST MAKES ME CRY CAUSE IT
IS SO SAD   TO SMELL THAT   AIR. IT SMELLS JUST LIKE  EVERYTIME  I WENT
 
TO BILO WITH THE BOYS WHEN THEY WERE LITTLE. ITS THE ONLY TIME I EVER
GOT OUT OR AWAY FROM THE HOUSE WE WENT TO BILO AND REVCO EVERY
 
WEEK  AND  IT WAS THAT EXACT SAME SMELL OF FRESH AIR OF EARLY SPRING
 
 I ALMOST CRIED. I WONT EVEN GO TO THAT SAME BILO IN ABBEVILLE EVER
AGAIN OR I WOULD CRY BUT I WENT TO GREENWOOD.
 
IT FELT SO GOOD OUTSIDE  AND THAT REMINDED ME OF BACK WHEN LIFE
 
WAS FREE AND NATURAL AND REAL AND NORMAL.  I WAS FREE AND THOSE WERE MY KIDS AND MY LIFE
 
AND NO ONE HAD A RIGHT TO STEAL THAT FROM ME.
 
 
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2007/3/18

I WONDER WHAT HAPPENED WITH THAT LITTLE BOY AND WHY HE HAD TO STAY BEHIND AND THEN WANDERED OFF

 
  THE MISSING BOY SCOUT , WAS HE NOT ALLOWED TO GO ON THE HIKE
WITH THE OTHERS AND WHO DID HE STAY BEHIND WITH ?
 
  WHAT HAPPENED WHILE THEY WERE GONE TO MAKE HIM
 
WANDER OFF AND EAT ALONE ?  A HALF A MILE AWAY IS WHERE HE
ATE.
 
   IF HE HAD EATEN WITH THE GROUP WHY WOULD HE HAVE HIS FOOD
 
WITH HIM AND THEN EAT  LATER A HALF A MILE AWAY.  WHO
WERE THE PEOPLE HE WAS WITH  ?
 
MAYBE HE  LEFT ON PURPOSE FOR SOME REASON.  I WANT TO HEAR
MORE ABOUT THAT.
 
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I AM A VERY EXUBERANT PERSON

 
 
   I GUESS CAUSE I THINK OUT SIDE THE BOX  SO MUCH . I GUESS THAT IS WHY.
 
  .IM EXUBERANT  BUT THAT IS  GOOD.
 
 
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